You know, I was going to write about how painful it can be to love another that doesn’t love you back. But that was last night and I’ve grown past that place. This morning I’m just so grateful to have him in my life as a friend and for him showing me how much joy I can share with another person. Yes, I felt the ego driven pain, the shame of falling for someone ,again, who didn’t return my love the way I Wanted them to, and the misplaced anger at the whole situation. But in reality, I’m so loved it’s almost ridiculous! My heart is so full and he is part of that love. So why be bitter and petty? I don’t think so! I’m full of gratitude and full of self love and Sources Love, how could I ever feel less than? I’m not sure. But one thing I do know is if I wanted I could still be stuck in self pity and anger. But really? Why? I’m so much more well rounded now that I have him in my life as a friend, he shares his love on that level so freely. And I’m so grateful for that, just because my little ego got embarrassed, doesn’t mean I should let it rule me, no! I choose how I grow, how I learn, and how I love. I choose love in all its forms, for that enrichment fulfills me.
I have the power to control my own perception of my reality. That’s it. I can’t make you change, grow, embrace grace, or rise up and love each other. But, I can.
I choose love=peace=freedom.
I don’t watch TV, I don’t read the News. I won’t let them in my reality. All people talk about is who’s dying. And I stand crying in awe of a baby’s first crying.
Peace, what must we pay for this most expensive commodity? Haven’t we payed enough? Do you want to know who has to DIE, to give PEACE a try!?
EGO, MUST PERISH!From the LIGHT OF TRUTH
HATE, MUST HANG in the LIGHT of LOVE
BUT MOST IF ALL FEAR MUST R.I.P. If we are EVER to live PEACEFULLY!!
Pick up the weapons of peace…truth…love…acceptance. ..compassion…understanding and wisdom.
Only You can change your reality, are you willing to give peace a chance?
I hurt, again. After 6+ weeks of being pain free…I hurt….agonizingly, gut wrenchingly…heartbreakingly. …I lay alone in my bed as my kids and niece go on day trips I’ve planed and cry. Not tears of self pity but of anguish and anger. I cry feelings that have been brought to the surface of the dreary water of my life.
I’ve been given the blessings of healing, where did it go? I’ve meditated and prayed with a love and gratitude filled heart…where did it go? I’ve shared the stories of my healing to those that would hear of them….where did it go? Where did the healing go?!! My heart cries out, in anger and frustration, why did it leave me?…what did I do wrong?
Nothing…murmur my guides, my Archangels Gabriel and Zadkiel. ..you’ve done nothing wrong.
Then why, I cry… tears of anguish dripping down my cheeks….
And with those tears, comes healing and understanding. ..
I’ve taken on another load of downloads, a higher vibration, and my body is desperately trying to meld with it..
By me getting upset, I throw a wrench in the whole system…blocking frequencies and slowing vibration. ..
Damn you’d think I’d know by now, SURRENDER, ALIGN AND ALLOW. ..
Every day. Basically all day.
Now, tears streaming down my face, catching in my eyelashes, and along my lips and chin…quiver in the vibration of my laughter my joyful noise, my understanding of the gifts I’ve been givin…
Surrender to the way things are, Align with the new coming in, Allow the changes t o be made…..REJOICE in the Gratitude I can express.
Blessings and love,
Falling….or is it floating? Wow, I really don’t know. Maybe a bit of both, yes that feels right. I don’t know that I’ve ever really been in LOVE before. As a walk in I’ve not had experience with this yet. Have I loved, oh yes, deeply, as a mother, friend, daughter, and sister, but been In love….between a woman and a man, no. My prior soul piece never really had either… lust… yes, infatuation. ..yes. But deep abiding love…no.
What a beautiful thing to be open to experience this great, majestic feeling. I am finally in a position of completion, and able, willing and wanting to experience such an expansion of the heart and soul.
I’m reading the book The Soulmate Experience and from what I’m witnessing of myself, feel like I’m healthy enough to open myself for a soul bonding, a life partner and best friend.
I think it must be a difficult thing…to ready one’s self, to release all of our attachments and become able and willing to give and receive unconditionally, with love but no attachments.
I really feel like I have a leg up, for even though I came into a deep pile of emotional garbage, none was of my own making and hence, I believe, easier to release. Not that it’s ever Easy to do emotional work, it was just easier to release it all, once I figured out that I didn’t need to be attached to any of it, then it was just a matter of letting go.
Sounds kinda easy huh? Nope it’s taken 5 years of intense work to even come to the understanding that it wasn’t my crap to begin with. I can only imagine how much more work it would be if you lived a full life here, experiencing, growing and being raised by traditional families. ..ugh. I’ve been privy to the damages that can and are done ” for the best” of that person…what a mess. I’m so grateful that the world is awakening and becoming more aware of the damage or healing that a simple turn of phrase can make. As they said in the ’70’s “make love not war”.
For those of you in a Soul mate relationship, I honor you. For any that are in transitional relationships I still honor you, for those can be just as intense emotionally and energetically. Having only had soul mates as friends not as a love relationship I don’t really know how to compare them…If you can at all. But…I’m ready to find out what it’s like, so, Universe, bring it on!
Love and blessings,
My family loves me, though they never say it.
Actions show so plainly that my family loves me.
They’ve given and sacrificed, showed in ways I was too blind to see.
Blindness gave way to jealousy.
My family loves me in all the ways that count, even though they’ll never understand me, inside or out.
What’s really amazing is that I can finally see, that I love them and they love me.
The first love letters are written with the eyes.
Real love is when you don’t have to tell each other.
The minuet I heard my first love story,
I started looking for you, not knowing how blind that was.
Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere,
they’re in each other all along.
I remember looking up into the Divines “eyes” and feeling my self washed clean, home and loved. What power there is in a look, a glance a caress with the eyes. Love, can alter destinies, change fates and move mountains. Love can start and stop wars, and can by simply acting from love obliterate famine, disease and destitution. Love picks us up, twirls us around and puts us back down, in new space. Thus causing us to see from another’s perspective. How powerful is love? Men and women die for it, Live for it, survive for it.
Our Divine Self is LOVE, what are you willing to do for it today?
Me? I plan on co-creating loving Peace, with whomever I met, wherever I go, and in whatever I do. That’s my Goal.
May your day be blessed’